ytd made me realize that the dichotomy is still there. these few weeks of spiritual journeying has focused my attention on one track, but i realized that the allure for another has not completely been subsumed.
there's an image of a heart - 2 halves joint together. one half is that of flesh. it is red and raw, it is wounded, it is bleeding. it cries out for security and protection. it is fragile and vulnerable. it is beating. it is human.
the other half is that of granite. it is hard, full of weight and gravity, smooth, pristine. it is strong. it is dark. it is cold.
the mystery is that the two halves are but parts of a whole; they exist as much in unity as in dichotomy. is either half called to be full? i don't really know. while it is cause for tension, it is definitely cause for strength. but perhaps we are not called to be strong...
but do you know how hard it is to choose pain over pride? to choose surrender over stoicism? perhaps you do. perhaps i'm just lagging behind. i have a long way to go i guess. i spent so long hardening. lolz sound like metapod~
i made my choice, a while ago. what struck me ytd was not how hard, but how long my choice was. i thought i was well into e way of conversion. but god rebukes a complacent heart see? ytd i realized i've merely painted the stone side red, to make it seem human. but beneath the red veneer, there is neither life nor blood. it's not easy to melt stone. not easy at all.
i'm being unnecessarily emo and irritatingly cryptic i know i'm srry. most of it is not on purpose it takes too long to be elucidatory, esp on these matters where a less-than-full understanding will cause even more dmg than total ignorance. if this were on someone else's blog i might read it with derision. it's just for e record i guess.
Name: Foo Guo Zhong Melvyn
Age: 19+
Affiliations: MSHS (Pri), Rosyth, RI, RJC, SFX (LoG)
Bday: 14th Nov
Email: mel_protoss@hotmail.com
ytd made me realize that the dichotomy is still there. these few weeks of spiritual journeying has focused my attention on one track, but i realized that the allure for another has not completely been subsumed.
there's an image of a heart - 2 halves joint together. one half is that of flesh. it is red and raw, it is wounded, it is bleeding. it cries out for security and protection. it is fragile and vulnerable. it is beating. it is human.
the other half is that of granite. it is hard, full of weight and gravity, smooth, pristine. it is strong. it is dark. it is cold.
the mystery is that the two halves are but parts of a whole; they exist as much in unity as in dichotomy. is either half called to be full? i don't really know. while it is cause for tension, it is definitely cause for strength. but perhaps we are not called to be strong...
but do you know how hard it is to choose pain over pride? to choose surrender over stoicism? perhaps you do. perhaps i'm just lagging behind. i have a long way to go i guess. i spent so long hardening. lolz sound like metapod~
i made my choice, a while ago. what struck me ytd was not how hard, but how long my choice was. i thought i was well into e way of conversion. but god rebukes a complacent heart see? ytd i realized i've merely painted the stone side red, to make it seem human. but beneath the red veneer, there is neither life nor blood. it's not easy to melt stone. not easy at all.
i'm being unnecessarily emo and irritatingly cryptic i know i'm srry. most of it is not on purpose it takes too long to be elucidatory, esp on these matters where a less-than-full understanding will cause even more dmg than total ignorance. if this were on someone else's blog i might read it with derision. it's just for e record i guess.